Dear Jeremy,
I’ve often wondered if God relays prayers/thoughts to loved ones that are with Him, just to let them know what’s happening down here. I know that Heaven is perfect and you are completely flawless right now…so you probably don’t really care about what is happening down here on this sinful earth. But just in case, I wanted to write you a letter anyway.
We miss you. Words can’t adequately describe the hole that is left in our hearts and our home. I miss your overly loud music that shook the window frames. I miss the smell of your Axe or Cologne, or whatever that awful stuff was…and the way you sprayed it in my room on occasion just to annoy me. I miss the random tackle-and-tickle moments, our tango sessions in the kitchen (or what we thought was the tango), and our rides in the car. I miss you teasing me about finding “Greg” and you telling me how you couldn’t wait for me to get married and have kids so you could be an uncle. I miss watching you play baseball and going to church with you. I miss watching movies, quoting them line-for-line, and laughing until we cried. I miss it when you brought your friends over to our house. I pretty much miss everything about you- the fun parts and the parts where I wanted to drag you outside and smack you a good one.
I bet Heaven is better than anything we ever imagined or anything we’ve ever seen together. That’s pretty incredible, once you think about it, considering we’ve seen the Grand Canyon and the top of Pike’s Peak. I don’t know if they hunt, fish, or drive four wheelers in Heaven, but if they do, I can only imagine the hay-day you’re having. Hunt the 12-pointers, catch the 20-pounders, and ride all over those golden streets. Give Pappy and Grandma Gerry and huge hug & kiss for me and say hi to all the family. I’m sure they love having you around to worship the King with them.
I don’t know exactly what you were feeling on earth, but I know how you were feeling. I’ve been hurting for a long time too, though not as bad. I know what it feels like to feel as if you are barely keeping your head above the water. I’ve been there. I’m still there. I know what it feels like to be afraid and to feel alone…and I wish that you would’ve realized how loved you were. I know that you wanted to be at peace, and though you made a terrible, sinful decision, I’m glad that you found it. You are now sitting at the feet of the Prince of Peace himself and I can’t help but wish I were there with you. I don’t know when Mom, Dad, and I will be joining you, but you better be with Jesus to greet us and to give us the bear hug that you were so famous for.
I love you so much and I’ll never stop, though I can’t tell you in person anymore. I promise to be strong, though it will be the most difficult thing I ever do. I promise to date and marry someone who you would approve of. I promise that I will do my best at everything I do- school, a career, serving others, etc. I promise that I will keep riding and keep shooting. I promise that I will be fearless for you and that I will follow the Lord.
And above all, I promise that I will “Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.”
Until we meet again in Glory,
Your Sis ❤
Love Sees You 