This may be short. It might not be. I haven’t quite decided yet. I’m sitting here listening to Christmas music (quite odd for me…I’m typically an adamant, after-Thanksgiving listener), contemplating the day, and really feeling the urge to write a little. I wrote a paper earlier today, so maybe that sparked something. Who knows? 🙂 This morning, though, I sat in my Human Diversity class, learning about ableism, and my professor said something that really gave my heart a twinge. She spoke about how we often feel incompetent, especially in the realm of mental illness, but even moreso in our walks with the Lord.
If we have a relationship with Christ, we are saved by grace. However, we often try to earn His grace, despite knowing that we don’t need to.
It was like the Holy Spirit was in person form and was jumping around inside my head shouting (kindly, of course), “YO. YOU DO THIS, GIRL!” Of course, I retort back, “No, I don’t! I am a child of God for pete’s sake! He saved me by grace! I know I don’t have to do anything to earn His favor!”
Then He spoke again and said (a little more quietly this time), “Then, why do you live like you have to earn it?”
That’s when I got a little teary-eyed. Whether or not the Holy Spirit was jumping about my mind is beside the point: what the important point is, however, is that He convicted me today. I constantly live as if I have to earn God’s favor.
Many of you (including myself, apparently), may not really see the issue with this. After all, when we try to earn God’s favor, it’s not like we are dipping a hand in the Sunday collection plate, giving our neighbor the cold shoulder, or lying about that homework assignment we forgot to do. NO! When we try to earn God’s favor…we do good things. We try to go to church more. We try to put up with our annoying neighbors. We try to limit our cussing. We try to pray more, read our Bibles more, and think good thoughts. The operative word here, folks, is try. We can try and try and try until we think we deserve a medal or something, but God looks at us and merely shakes His head. Why? Because we are trying for perfection. Yup. We are.
You see, when we forget that God’s grace is not earned, we try to earn a holiness that only He can bestow. Trying to do good to earn God’s favor is like trying to use a high school dropout record to get you into a Harvard Doctorate Program. It just isn’t gonna happen. Paul says this in His letter to the Galatians…
“I do not nullify the grace of God, for if righteousness were through the law, then Christ died for no purpose” {Galatians 2:21}
For good works to earn us God’s favor, we would have to be perfect (because He is perfect, Heaven is perfect, and He knows no sin). We would have to be spewing out good works so there was not an inch of space for anything slightly wrong. And surprise, surprise…not one of us can do that. We are imperfect. Righteousness could only come through doing good things if we did them perfectly. And if we could do them perfectly…Jesus would have had zero reason to die on the cross.
THAT is grace. “God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.” {2 Corinthians 5:21} Guys. We don’t have to earn grace. Especially when we know that we are saved by it. In His grace, He calls us children, brothers, and even SAINTS. What a nugget of truth. A boulder of truth. A freaking mountain of truth. He calls us saints by His grace given to us. {Ephesians 2:19}
I have been living life recently trying desperately to earn God’s favor. I think I have become much more aware of my sin and have simply forgotten that He forgives. He is loving and merciful and good and He will cast my sin as far as the east is from the west because I am His. Guys, I have given in to temptation, spoke out of turn, easily become angry, selfishly demanded my way, and so much more. I even feared for the longest time that God would be upset with me and take away good things from me if I kept messing up. Ultimately, though, I have disregarded who God is by trying to earn back His favor after all my mistakes. I threw His gift of grace in the garbage by not acknowledging it. I have left Him in the dust as I have tried to get on His good side. I have doubted His promises as I try to take matters into my own hands. I have really been a poor excuse of a child of His.
Yet, that grace is still there. God knows my sins. He knows my shame. And He knows that I will often try to make myself right with Him by doing good things. And yet, He still grants me His grace. Holy wow.
Friends, may we stop trying. Do good to honor your Father in Heaven. Don’t do good simply to earn back His favor…you will never do enough. Remember that “He gives more grace” {James 4:6} and live in light of that truth.